I love telling Diary what’s new :)
Five days since we last spoke. I lose track of the time so easily.
Friday and Saturday I disappeared to Massachusetts to spend time with someone special during a hard time. Wasn’t very productive, but I didn’t need to be in that moment. I just needed to be there.
We watched a lot of TV. Have you ever seen Smiling Friends? I’m surprised I hadn’t seen it before, it’s right up my alley. It’s a wild mix of 2D, 3D, and live action. I’d like to showcase more of my 3D work. I’m starting to. The cover of this month’s FAGIOLINA is a 3D self portrait (unfinished as usual, but lovely nonetheless).
Since I got back I’ve been doing more work for the Comedy Pageant August 30th, it’s all coming together great. I’ve got to film one more bit this week.
Today though I think I’ll go back to building a certain non-euclidean space I’ve been thinking about for a while. It’s technically not coming out exactly how I want, but I’ve accepted that. I just want to have something to show before August is over.
08/19/2025 10:07 AM
Wherever I am and whatever else is going on, there’s always an itch to doodle. Here’s a few I did the past couple nights while I couldn’t concentrate on much else.
I finished this month’s swatchy too, so check that out if you want.
08/14/2025 10:01 AM
I got my lips refilled and I’m quite happy with them again. They still had product from last time so now they’re even bigger. Nothing like a large vanity purchase to boost my mood. My technician, Susada, is a wonderful sculptor. She’s always careful not to overdo it. I explained to her that I don’t mind if they look artificial. I see it more akin to a tattoo. It doesn’t need to look natural. I’m excited to paint them again soon, although I likely won’t be doing that until next Thursday.
I put up a new editorial and uneditorial page from last week at Chez. I posted it to stupid dumb flop Instagram too, but because it’s not a reel with trending audio and a zillion hashtags and I didn’t post it at the right time the algorithm buried it. Social media is such a pit. I should get a third party app to post so I can make queues instead of just putting them up when they’re finished and I remember…
Plus it would mean I log on less and that would be great. I hate catching myself looking at all of this nothing content from strangers that just want to drain my attention span. It’s like the brain equivalent of gorging on chips.
Besides that I’m still getting things ready behind the scenes for the Comedy Pageant, and I’ve been working on a new coding project in GODOT. Not ready to share either of those yet though.
08/13/2025 10:55 AM
Yoohoooo yoooouuu~
What have I been up to for the past 5 days?
I pretty much finished this month’s Swatchy, so she’ll be up soon.
I got a chance to wear my pretty pretty princess dress at the Chez last Thursday. It was my favorite makeup I’ve ever done I think. All the uneditorials from that night are up, so you can check those out now if you want and I’ve basically finished editing them I just gotta make a page to put them on. Sunday I shot some stuff too but I’ll tell you about that later…
Can I share something a little personal, diary?
I’ve been feeling increasingly out of place in crowds recently. I still feel fine in front of crowds, I honestly can’t remember the last time I got stage fright. I know what to expect when I have a role to play. I can come up with quips effortlessly, but being part of the crowd feels foreign. I get lost in all the noise of large groups. I feel like an alien trying its best to mimic human behavior. Simple questions about my actual life and goals have become complicated and tedious to answer.
What have I been up to? How am I? What do I do? I can tell you all this junk easily, diary. It’s not like you’ll get confused or even have any opinion at all. You’re not real. You’re even more artificial than I am.
The strangest part about it all is that I’m not afraid people won’t like me, I’m afraid they will. I’m afraid they’ll expect more from me than I have to give. I say yes when I shouldn’t. It’s irrational, and I think there’s more to it than just what I’ve written out now. In any case, it feels like a bit of a relief to talk about a little.
08/11/2025 10:27 AM
Hiii diary. It’s been a few days since we last spoke. I’ve just been getting lost in my projects once again.
Partly getting ready for the Comedy pageant at the end of this month. Partly making progress on the usual installments for FAGIOLINA. Here’s a sneak peak of this month’s Featured Swatchy, can you guess which one it’s a redraw of?
Mostly I’ve been working on something new. Hard to explain it without showing you, and I’m not ready to do that yet diary. I’m excited though. It’s an intersection of many of my passions. It will be a lot of work, but so much potential too.
08/06/2025 9:34 AM
It’s a new month, and a new issue. I wrapped up the July FAGIOLINA at the last minute (my favorite time to be productive). I’ll probably repost stuff from it onto my lesser social medias eventually but for now it’s here if you want it. I wrote the intro for August which goes over my goals for this month.
Besides magazina work I’ve mostly been focusing on getting ready for the Comedy Pageant at the end of this month, and organizing my drag a bit. Would you believe a shit ton of clothes, makeup, and equipment can get difficult to manage?
I’m having fun too obviously. Today I saw Torchsong at The Northhampton Center for the Arts. It was such a wonderful production with a couple local queens involved @bluberrimoore and @dame_judi_denchers as the lead.
While I was in Northhampton I had to take the opportunity to go shopping <3
I found a ridiculous princess dress at a thrift shop for $25 so expect photos in that soon… for now though I’m gonna go to bed. I’m sleepy, Flaminia <3
08/02/2025 11:33 PM