I love telling Diary what’s new :)
Got some outfits ready for pictures! I love playing dress up, and working on my dress up game(/prototyping gallery). I realized at this point it’ll be faster to start a new file that’s a little more organized. I knew I’d get to this point (this was already my third project file), that’s why I started small with just two rooms. It’s what’s called a “minimum viable product” in the game industry. I cleaned up my doodle room in Blender and made a texture atlas to use less files, and I added a little vase with flowers.
Vases have become one of my favorite motifs this past year. There’s a lot to love about them. They’re shiny, colorful, sheer, have smooth curves, flowers, and they’re fragile. Perfectly functional one minute and then BANG! Sharp dangerous little pieces in all directions.
Reminds me, Flaminia, of someone…
10/03/2025 3:07 PM
I forgot today was Yom Kippur. Holy day of fasting and atonement or whatever. It would be easier to remember if it wasn’t on a different day every year (thanks lunar calendar). Anyways, I didn’t call out of work for it, nor am I fasting this year. I’ve felt guilty and apologized for plenty already this past month alone.
I have a complicated relationship with my faith, which is fairly common in a modern world that seems at odds with ancient traditions. Maybe I’ll write about that more later… for today I want to do more work on my digital gallery and plan outfits for a photoshoot this weekend.
10/02/2025 3:26 PM
It’s a new month. I got the new FAGIOLINA started. I didn’t finish the September issue on time. Oopsy. I put a lot of pressure on myself to meet these deadlines, despite this website getting single digit traffic. It’s because here I feel like I’m building something real. I’m able to express ideas that don’t fit into character limits and file constraints. Learn, grow, and experiment without putting myself into an easily digestible algorithm appeasing box.
I still want to interact with others though. I’m not aiming for a huge audience. I just want it to be easier to share my work with people who are organically interested. I can’t realistically expect people to check my website unsolicited, but I know they’re checking social media anyways. As much as I hate it, I still compulsively open Instagram.
I was posting screenshots of my diary for a while to do that, and it was ok, but too ephemeral. It didn’t seem important enough to warrant full on posts, but then I realized… why not? Might as well haphazardly share what I’m doing instead of occasionally posting more polished things. It’s not going to get “engagement” either way. I’m just gonna have fun with it and take a more casual approach.
10/01/2025 4:14 PM